That was October, 2020, and I still had Covid-head (hence the mini-man bun). Anyway...here's a throwback to the visit, the book, and a poem that was born out of both.
Walking with Ger
~b.r.crandall
As Chris says,
Violence is a strange monster.
and today, the paper
reports that cameras
caused the confession.
But it’s never enough,
so I imagine you and Emmanuel
sipping bourbon
while singing
The scars are what get us this far.
I have only relocated by choice,
privileges,
and remain sheltered
by books, emboldened
by libraries.
Still, I watch Ukraine
as if it’s a Marvel movie,
waiting for
the better ending.
Empathy should be a superpower.
(I have to believe that,
even if I’ve never had to burn cow dung
to repel flies and mosquitos).
So walking with you today,
separate memories,
varying histories,
storytelling
from rising suns…
and seeing them set —
I find myself in
the adolescent loop
to find solace
within the game.
It makes me wonder
what the Paugussett Nation
called the Long Island Sound.
These blue skies offer optimism.
The Breeze is more pessimistic.
And you tell me
the Nuer sing when they’re happy,
mourn when they’re sad,
and fight when they’re angry.
They leave nothing inside.
But I’m outside now.
trying to remake myself
a 1,000 times over,
and still carving
the world
for
more meaning.
I see
a sandpiper
running along
the shoreline.
Perhaps that’s
what I really
need.